convictionsofawriter

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Its not very hard to see!!! if you know me i mean!!!i was raised to have a racist outlook on life and  society as we know it..period. it takes a serious humility to even publish that for all eyes to see!!! however…thats why i can write it or say it if you will allow me???its therapy to excersise a new form of living…thinking acting!!a new set of values  in which come their own private sets of convictions but those i can live with in contentment.. n be happy that convictions give birth to new ideals ..new ways to see things.. to feel about situations ones  put in n the 80 to 94.6  years some of us will be lucky to live to be…i wont write a political blogg speaking of all the political reasons obamas great!! id  be outgunned.i dont know enough nor have enough knowledge of polotics to debate them on a blogg!!however people hang in there il take you there soon!!!you’l understand the how obama changes me story and  i hope you will smile!!when your young and your around racist minds  you have roots you dont want!!however when your around certain ignorance you may find comfort in just acting as though you agree because you don’t want to seem different.. you may have friends of different races your whole life and still have tainted predjuidices about you!!! i admit these sins too!!i mean if your dads uncles cousins and everyone involved with your family has rascist values its hard to make a choice!!!ive seen things in all races we should all be ashamed of but those just aren’t our people anyway they may be our race but thats not my people!!its not yours either..ignorance loves all flavors ..okay anyway so ..i watched obama and at first was skeptical…at first im not sure if i knew who he was???so i listened..and then i listened some more..i learned..i love to learn..so i learned and i changed…i read i watched i listened…  i learned we change!!! so this year for the holidays being the busy people we all are ..in my personal family i mean..we communicate through cell phones, texts ,email, yes wer’e guilty of the gadgets!!!but this is communication…so this year we all emailed what we wer’e thankful for the following year!!!ouremails were personal so il just say this…in my email amongst other things i am thankful for i said …im thankful obama changed my heart..AND I AM!!!

yes i am a die hard steelers fan!!!! yesterday was a huge day for guys like me!!fans!!! we are loyal to our teams and days like yesterday are our payoffs!!im happy to be a steelers fan and even if they would of lost id still be a fan today tommorow and as long as im alive!!i at times see people who aren’t sports fans or basically indifferent to professional sports as a whole and its dayz like these that i wish they too could feel the rush of celebration in games like the nfl playoffs and the upcomming superbowl!!! i laughed yesterday i got upset i yelled i cheered i whined about the referees i cussed i talked trash n i felt very emotional for the opposing teams player when he was taken out on a stretcher with an apparent neck injury…it put a damper on the game but these are the choices players fans and media sign on for when you become dedicated to sports and a certain lifestyle where your conversations are filled with sports talk!!!you are part of it!!! you live it you watch it you study it ..it may even define you!!!i would be the first to admit when the steelers lace em up for gameday i take a certain pride when i too get out my steelers shirt i scan my hat rack for the cap i want 4 that day <i have many steelers hats!! maybe to many???eh not possible> i even smile when i put on my steelers watch…next i grab my frosty steelers mug i got for christmas outta the freezer n it’s nearing gametime!!!i get nervous i feel excited i even get a lil stomach pain if it’s a huge game!!! well all these rituals are all so much sweeter when days like yesterday occur and your team did enough to make it to the big show!! aka the superbowl,,yes in two weeks il be gettn out my shirt again picking out a hat dusting of my steelers jacket clamping on my steelers watch grabbing my steelers mug n let the excitement take over…hmmm if its cold in two weeks i may just breakout my fleece steelers blanket for the special occasion!!!so if you are a fan of the nfl or love someone who is…get in the game!!!its waiting for you!!we accept all fans of our teams and our games!!!see you on sunday!!!

Ofcourse i remember when!!! I remember when the thief on the cross next to jesus asked him to remember him when jesus got back to heaven and jesus replied …youl be with me!!!im not religious by any standards although iv’e been baptised both catholic and christian and have both certificates to prove it!!!i also have 8 yrs of private school to add to that resume but the man i am today rarely speaks to GOD anymore!!! it was just a statement to bring out things i remember!! i remember when tom slipped a powdered donut in his pocket after the whole white wash fence episode with his grandmother…i also remember when sallly got recognized by the badguys and once again he ended up on the run in the book titled BIGTIME!! i remember when i read about  all sorts of stories and then as i read in real life my class witnessed president regan being shot..i peeked over my book top and saw brady in the gutter bleeding badly!!! i remember heroes and villians and their adventures and i dealt out equal love!! when i was younger i had heros that were sometimes on the other side of the law!! i witnessed john wayne as a cowboy running from the law!!! i remember one day i was at my uncle vinny’s and big pauly was on the news dead laying in the street!!  i witnessed mob guys rise to status of a polotician then when we where done with them we created laws to stop theyr’e reign!!! i watched jesse run for president and we all knew he didnt have a chance..i watched obama run and america celbrated with wine and dance!!! im  young by standards not even forty yet by my eyes have seen so much!!! i remember watching david in wako burn and i think i even cheered!! i was just sitting here remembering things that have affected my era and its amazing the things we see!!i saw mcveigh blow up  federal building and then deny all rights to live!! i saw ramirez kisinsky and bundy do their thing!!!i saw the pope  in denver and bill say he never had relations with that women!! i saw majic,jordan,tyson and jesse owens win it all!!! i even saw jackie die way too young and noone said steroids but it was on everyone of our minds!!! i saw the terminator take a state and somehow i wondered are we foreal??are you kidding me is this a joke??? i saw tupac die for music and biggie had to pay the piper too!! i watched martha go to prison and get out to feed her horse!!! i wont dive into my thoughts on these wonders ive witnessed i just wanted to share some things that i remember!!! in present day i watched tony soprano, carrie bradshaw and marlo stansfield and told myself their us!!! i watched nate on six feet under die and it hurt like when sia sang to me in the final episode!! well these are the things mine eyes have seen!!! i hope everyone sees as much as me!!!

Yes thats an asumable title..we are much more terrified of our pockets taking a slashing over any b movie character named jason or freddy!!!we let financial burdens keep us awake more so then any haloweeen part whatever their up to these dayz!!!so yes il touch on Americas nightmare aka our present day recession!!!please dont comment my incorrect spelling my points are more valid then a few simple mistakes..so back to my plight!!! One year ago when 3 of my family members were layed off n so was i …to be honest i wasn’t all that concerned!!i am a blue collar worker so iv’e alwayz told myself{dont worry they’l always have work for blue collar laborers}..hmmm well here i am a year or so later out of work again!!layed off!!truthfully i am scared because it’s not just happening here or over there its happening everywhere!!!you cant even go dig a ditch for 10 bucks an hour without submitting a college degree n 6 years in ditch digging expierience!!! i am overdoing the credentials for ditch digging moderately but not by much!!!i saw a job that payed 12 dollars an hour posted today on craigslist if you have a ba in applied science and are seeking a masters???are you kidding me??i used to get 22 an hour for demolishing buildings with a sludge hammer!!! i heard a man say once[theres no more feelings for this country} it dosen’t matter who said it>>it was said n registerd in my heart forever!!whats happening people??? its not just the blue collar guy but its also the teachers with 2 degress and a 10 yr under their belts?? do our words as humans or americans or whatever we choose to claim ourselves as christians,catholics muslims,buhdist ect ect..do our words de value over time??what about the guy who loves busting bails of hay living on a farm fishing n working on hizs pickup and feel good about it everday guy??? or the lady at star bucks sporting the fendi bag ordering her 8 dollar mocha sporting her turbo bmw because she worked hard wanted it earned it and has her god chosen right to live how she pleases???what of her??what of all of us??i wonder if money and finances and material gain is fed up with us and teaching our whole human race a big fat lesson???slow down relax take care of eachother….have some feelings for your countries…work live prosper!!! evolve??? hmmm i was just thinking about those words!!! wheres the feelings for our country???

Sporting events for some of us is our release! everytime its game day we get that feeling that feeds a breeding ground for the generations to come..just yesterday i witnessed the NFL playoffs and it was everything i had anticipated and more…it also got me to thinking about why we all get so excited? is it that we love our favorite teams that much???we buy all their gear and most of our family gathering involve sports if nothing else at least in our conversations…how do these teams generate so much devotion??well without a four hour disscussion il give you one thought…its because as humans we love to be right and when our teams are doing well or win big games or get great players we feel as though we called it that way just by supporting our favorites!!!when my teams win i often tell my dad or brothers that i said it all along and the playcalling was just the way i would have called it myself…it just feels good when something you hold with such pride makes you seem somehow more on top then say the guy whos team didnt win a game that year>>arrogant one might say??we sports fans would beg to differ!! it’s a game..a team,a leauge a olympic event !!! a release..something that ties you to a lil piece of something that you feel is you! its yours if you grasp it..sports teams will never stop accepting fans and win lose or draw you will most likely see them next year and they’l be there for your lil reality escape!!! so go on lose yourself in the games,go out back with the football and pretend your paten manninng or jump in your pool and swim fast an yell out your michael phelps!!! shoot a jumpshot in your driveway and envision yourself as lebron or jordan!!!its okay!! the games will go on..so let the games in and let the games begin!!!!